Wednesday Update #7

[yoki_morita]

Hi.

I have an depressive mood. Again. Or still.
Someone said that yesterday it snowed a little bit but I didn't see it because I didn't look in the window.
I'm so tired of all. Studying goes bad. My friend said it's the first time when she doesn't want study at all.

Random: I can't call my ichiban by his name. I mean I call him Hama, Hama-chan, Hamadabut I can't call him Takahirobecause I'm immediately like ドキドキ. Even if I just write his name (like now). Even if I just call him like that in my mind.
He once said on radio that no one calls him Takahiro by the way. (But last week Kiriyama once called him by his name in jweb).
I always wonder why I love him (Hama-chan, not Kiriyama). It's like you can't choose who to love? I remember I decided to look at him more when it was said that he will be purple in group. I like purple thanks to Kawai. I had 4 purple ichibans: Miyata, Kawai, Matsuzaki and Hamada. (Miyata and Kawai are not my ichibans anymore...)
And I chose Zaki and Hama-chan because of purple. But it seems like it's my type of favourite people since I choose johnny's with almost the same character lol.

I love Hama-chan. Very much. It's like I can't even breath sometimes.
I'm in love with him huh...
I have a partner whom I love more than life.
Of course I'm not an idiot, I don't want to marry Hama-chan well I do... sometimes..., I won't ever call him my future husband. He won't be my future husband. He is like my favourite man in the whole world, he is the dream that's far away from me. I can't even go to JWEST concert *cries*

What a weird update today... Sorry

Comments

[housekini.livejournal.com]

You're so cute T___T *hugs*

IKR? We don't think to them like "husbands" or stuff, but they help us smile and living the shitty life we got... (or at least for me it's like that)

And yeah, we can't chose who like... I ended up liking Tottsu more than anyone else -Followed by Yuudai and Hama-chan- but Tottsu isn't even my type LOOL Our brain and heart is strange, ne?

By the way, you made me curious about something: "Miyata and Kawai are not my ichibans anymore..."
So who are in those groups your ichiban?






Try to stay strong ne!

Pel obaa-san :-P

[yoki-seity.livejournal.com]

You make me blush ^^; *hugs back*

Yeah! Totally agree. For me too. They all save me, help to relax a little bit...

Haha no one is my ichiban in these groups now. I'm not into Kisumai already and for Ebi... I suddenly realised that I don't like Kawai like I did before and now I just have quite same attitude to all of them ^^

I will try to stay strong, I will do my best (.__.)b

Thank you for your support, dear Pel ♥

[housekini.livejournal.com]

Aww too sad that you "forgot" your love for Fumi, but well, it happens...

I guess exist idols job is exactly cheer us up, isn't it?